Its a Mad Mad World

A loong time since my last post, which was written in a mood comprising of disappointment, disillusionment, worry, conflicting emotions, ego and a mixture of all the good-bad things that often fight inside me.The only thing that has been same from the last post and this one is that I am busy, I have contemplated a lot on this and have found that, my indulgence to satiate my boredom leads me to do, what they call- "Timepass".  I am working on that too. Anyways, this means I don't have much time for my leisure..So, I thought why not share this poem my William Davies by the same name-

  LEISURE

What is this life if, full of care,

We have no time to stand and stare.

No time to stand beneath the boughs

And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see, when woods we pass,

Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.

No time to see, in broad daylight,

Streams full of stars, like skies at night.

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,

And watch her feet, how they can dance.

No time to wait till her mouth can

Enrich that smile her eyes began.

A poor life this is if, full of care,

We have no time to stand and stare. 

One might say that I ain't posting something new, something original from my side. But, well, I post what I feel like.. And, ya I soon will have enought time (genuinely) to post something entirely from my side, without quoting anything..LOVE :)--

J

Life Plugged 3.0

Phew!!! What a life have I got.. An absolute Roller coaster one! A chunk of the highs and lows in it come from my own idiot mind, which for the record is a very sharp one when I see it in context of my intellectual prowess..

So the week started very nicely with me diligently devoted to my studies and all. I had full control (or so I
thought) and was doing pretty well. Just two days into the week, it all burst off.. Strangely I suddenly felt an aversion to everything- Facebook, Girls, Studies, Books, household things and even FOOD, for God's sake..
Ya I know its another trick played by mind.. blah blah blah. I need to keep it busy but to tell you the truth I am damn tired of trying to tame it. To those people who say, oh come on go with the flow... BULLSH** I tried that too. But the guilt that hits me is partially the loss of my interest in appetite and other things.. So I am caught between what I ought to do and what I should..

Also, there has been another reason why I kept away from my blog. .Even though I know it is my canvass of creation, I sometimes feel, it'd have been better had there been some more activity on my blog from others. I am not an attention seeker, and neither am I feeling lonely and nor have I stooped so low that I need people to tell me I write well. I know I do so and don't need a certificate from people (many of them who even look up to me). Again you can blame it on my characteristic libran trait of indecision.. One side I frequently let people know about my blog (whenever I update it). On the other hand I DO NOT write on topics which people are dying to read- "LURRVV" and other sentimental things... I have no problem with people who write that stuff (infact I appreciate everyone and anyone who writes regardless of their genre and skill, at least they try :) )
But the point is I don't feel like writing much on it.

So talking about myself, this blog has become more about my rants now coz I guess I have been putting too much of 'Gyaan' or 'philosophy' in my posts.. Dunno what to make out of it..
I am contemplating on perhaps shifting to a new blog, perhaps Wordpress in some time.. That again will depend on my state of mind in the following month.
For now... Signing off!!
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J