The INside Story

So, finally I am posting something.

Its not that I didnt get time or I was lazy or something. Infact I drafted twice within a week and then deleted it.

I just wasnt finding the right thing to express. And more importantly I wasnt happy with the rough draft.

So, Life going at a fairly fast pace. Call it irony or else, but I seem to be an observer. And for me, the experience has been slow. Or maybe its coz I am absorbing things slowly...

Believe me a week ago, it wasnt like that.

I was really caught on crossroads, life messed up. Ambivalent feelings towards my crush. (With her not responding to me). There were a lot of things to do, to achieve, to strive for. But really there was SO MUCH that I didnt know what to do.

Paralysed by too much!!!

When I started one thing, I feared that other would remain incomplete and like that.

What was funnier that I hadnt f***ed up my life. It was perfectly fine.

In my words - "Ordinary in the most ordinary ways".

I guess it was largely a case of how I viewed things. I was trying to become more and more of something I wasnt. This way I wasnt able to tap into the potential I have in my uniqueness.

What was required was not an introspection

(I had loads of them and most of the time I blamed myself as the culprit)

But just to take it easy. Just calm down a bit, soothen up... Relax.

So, I tried it out today.

It worked!!! VOILA.

Believe me when I say so (really, I am not lying)

"Its all INSIDE you. Nothing is outside.."

Just ponder over it for a while.

You'll understand...

:)

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J